My Manitoba home does a body good
There are 500 photos in the queue and 500 stories to go with each of them. But rather than keep you waiting, I thought I’d introduce you to the relaxed Melanie that Joe caught on camera one evening while the family played Scrabble on the deck while the sun set over the barn. I love the farm and I loved a relaxing week off with Joe.
I had a great time. So great a time that I came home completely exhausted and had to sleep for a week before I got back on schedule. Well, kind of.
As I mentioned on Twitter, my first thoughts of home turn back to the job hunt. Which in turn gives me anxiety and sleepless nights. Which were amplified by the fact that I had just had a wonderful week at home with my family where I didn’t let myself worry about money or jobs or anything. For a whole week. It was great. So in addition to vacation fatigue, job stress, and PMS (it’s a great thing eh?) I’ve had a rough week.
Today things turned around though. One of the things I forget when I’m down is that I need to not just stay confined to my little bubble. Even though Joe is around to bump into my bubble on a daily basis, if I’m not careful it gets very cramped and lonely. Thoughts of feeling fat and unemployed and stupid and unlovable run rampant. But thanks to an email today from one of my best girl friends and a phone call shortly thereafter, I realized that I’m not alone in this big mean world.
And I felt better. And I realized even more things.
I think I have this job thing figured out, but I’m going to have to leave you all hanging as to what that is until I get it confirmed for sure. Joe and I are finally tackling the apartment. Clutter and mess in the apartment is a huge indicator of my mental well being, so getting that straightened out will come with great relief. We still have 2x lots of things (two kitchen shelves, two sets of cutlery, two sets of dishes) and so about half has to go. And with the heat it’s been less than motivating to start carting stuff to the thrift store. The cats are lovely and cuddly and glad to have us back. Other than things are a bit financially strained everything is great.
Everything is great.
It’s nice to say that once and a while.